Tuesday, while with the OB team, talk turned to Jovin for a while, him being a mutual friend of Fahmi and I. This morning, JY asked a favour about Finance textbook, which made me send a text to Jovin to ask if he still has his. Later, I bumped into Jovin at the lecture theatre. He introduced me to his friend, who is also a friend of Fahmi. Talk naturally centred around Fahmi for a while.
Then, lunch with Elaine, who was taking a class that I know Fahmi takes too. Asked her if he's in her class. Yes, recognition, and absolutely accurate description. Finished eating, finished talking about Fahmi being late for class and 'debating' with someone. Just parted with Lainey, was headed left for the stairs but something made me turn right. And then I did a double take. There, twenty paces away, against the light if the afternoon, was Fahmi himself! Biggest surprise of the day.
The thing about me making such a big deal about these things is that my groups of friends are always very separate from each other. Just today, I had to meet them all separately, because they don't know each other. That's why I did nothing from 1pm to 3pm, except being with people. It's a surprise when the same people just pop into my life again and again and again within that short span of time.
Life is incomplete without certain small failures. I'm in Prof C's really really really bad books now. ): I'm thinking of ways to turn things around, but I fear the sacrifices that I have to make in order to make things work out. Opportunity costs are always so high. That's what makes life difficult...
Life has a way of giving me surprises and making me feel better. I was worrying about having offended Aaron since way way way back. Then, after the BD meeting, there was that unexpected occasion to talk and break the ice. Later on, I bumped into him at the bus stop and we talked all the way back, for more than half an hour, until I was sure that he's no longer offended by my insensitivity from long ago.
Sometimes I feel like there are so many patterns to be made out from life. But then I kinda think that it's just me, thinking too much... Anyway, about all those decisions that I'm about to make with my life, I'm wondering if the kind of happiness that I'll enjoy after those decisions will be natural happiness, or synthetic happiness? (In reference to that TED video I recently watched.)
I often wish for time to come to a complete stop, so that I can go figure things out for a bit. But I know I shouldn't complain, because many people have much tougher lives to lead. But sometimes I can't help but dream about more carefree days.
Speaking of dreams, I had another nightmare last night. Why, so many nightmares in the recent months! I can start making movies out of them, really!
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